Cadence

(A melodic or harmonic configuration that creates a sense of repose or resolution.)

"But I am like a green olive tree in the house of God; I trust in the mercy of God for ever and ever." - Psalms 52:8

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

HisAlbum'sComingOutSept9!!

yeah, i am excited.

Monday, August 28, 2006

you all have GOT to see this!!

the graveyard shift

oh, great.

i'm stuck in school at this time of the night (morning) counting slides... AND MY COUNTER JUST GAVE UP ON ME.

gahhhhhhhhhh now i have to come back tmr morning. and vie for the microscope with my fellow project-mates/ colleagues (?)

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i've been leaving school in the wee hours - 430am, 12am - rushing out some results before my prof kicks us out of his lab (oh Lord, i pray you give me favour, please, thanks)

i'm determined to finish my project and everything by the end of this year. which gives me 5 months to work on my thesis.

please pray, thank you. i am really very, very, tired.


... and scared.

um, and stressed.

AND worried.

aiyah a lot of things la. sheesh. my hair's all coming off. :(

Thursday, August 24, 2006

dirty hands, i demand.

year 4 so far has been insane. it's only been 2 weeks into the start of school and i've fallen sick (am still sniffly), gotten all stressed out over my modules (what the heck is the lecturer talking about???) and am currently moping over the state of my honours project.

i've got one month to set things right.

Friday, August 18, 2006

oh, neutral day.

i don't ever remember walking into a Practical session feeling all calm and prepared.

nope, not even on the day where i stride into LS Lab 9... as a Teaching Assistant.

i know, which idiot would go into lab so unprepared, especially when you're to be doing demonstrations right?

but you see, that was all i thought i'd be doing - teaching the Year ones some basic microbiology techniques like, streaking, flaming, inoculation etc.

IT WASN'T TO BE.

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*20 mins before lab begins*

Prof Ho: ok, TAs, you will be taking one bench each for the practical...

(OMG ONE BENCH GOT FREAKING 12 STUDENTS, YOU WANT ME TO TEACH ALL??? i thought i'd just be doing a demo only!!! like an 'eh let's go see what that Year 4 girl is doing, coz it's a demo.' oh noes.)

Prof Ho continues: and also, you will have to give them a briefing before they go off...

(oh man, i am so screwed. what briefing?? NO ONE TOLD ME I HAD TO PREPARE TO BRIEF THEM! 'er hi, i'm vivien. er... the Gram stain is called a Gram stain because... er, er...' *brain implodes*)

Prof Ho: and you have to mark their lab reports. they hand them in on the 15th of september.

*jaw drops*

eh seriously, i asked MY OWN TA who got me this job and he said i was only a demo. i kept asking if he was sure that's all to it, and he reassured me that i was only a demo.

unless this to him looks like what a demo does. which is, to me, a TA's job already la! wah liao!!

i start to panic. Farty just gives me the 'oh-what-the-hell-let's-just-all screw-everything-up-together-with-the-year-ones shall we?' look.
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*practical begins*

me: hi, my name is vivien! i am, erm, your TA (it sounded weird rolling off my tongue) for this practical.

i proceed to explain how to keep your workplace sterile while you work with microbes and what to look out for. then i do a little demo on the first few parts for them to follow.

they completed the first 2 sections in 15 minutes.

WOW.

i shut my hanging jaw and tell myself it's because i am a good TA that's why they're so fast (i needed to delude myself... was trying to make myself less nervous in front of a bunch of fast learners.)

i slowly get into the pattern of 1) demo (i hate this word now. fake me!!!!), 2) things to look out for, 3) walk around the bench to correct techniques.

halfway through ths pattern i start getting hungry and lose steam.

'eh just follow protocol. you all know how to do right? oooooooooookay just go ahead now.'

in the end, my bench ended on time and got most of their stuff done, other than me not being able to specify what i want to see in their lab reports which I am marking.

i wish i was more informed about my duties. :(

never mind, it's Group 2's turn next week... HAHA!

Thursday, August 17, 2006

boooooo.

the results for 'so you think you can dance' is out.

... and it's not travis. :(

ok la, but to be fair i liked benji too. at least none of the girls won, coz that'll really be a fluke.

sian.

maybe one day you will realise this of me:

You're not sure that you love me
But you're not sure enough to let me go
Baby it ain't fair
You know, you just keep me hanging round


You say you don't wanna hurt me
Don't wanna see my tears
So why are you still standing here
Just watching me drown

And it's alright
Yeah, I'll be fine
Don't worry about this heart of mine
Just, take your love and hit the road
Cause nothing you can do or say
You're gonna break my heart anyway
So just leave the pieces when you go

Now you can drag out the heartache
Baby you can make it quick
You can get it over with and let me move on
Don't concern yourself with this mess you left for me
I can clean it up you see
Just as long as you're gone

You're not making up your mind
It's killin' me
You're wasting time
I need so much more than that


- Wreckers, Leave the Pieces

you shouldn't have to need me to bring you through life.

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

my free day.

weee!! i love wednesdays coz they're my free day.

... it's been a while since i woke up at 1130 already. T_T

meeting scary melly later for some 3 hours of pool; i miss hanging out with her, man. i mean, we hang out with the rest at least once a month, but just the 2 of us? haven't happened for what seems like a year.

i really suck as a friend.

ah well. anyways, she's quit her job so she's gonna be pretty free. which means i'll be spending the whole day out. and the fact that i've slept half my free time away means i've got tons of work undone.

crap.

i think i'll finish it when i come home. if i'm not sapped of energy yet.

(what a pointless post.)

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

the black blank keyboard.


it's a scary thing, one of these. esp when i'm the sort that can't type without looking at the keys. it's just pure laziness from young, i guess.

but out of a whim, i tried...

and i've been typing this without looking at the keyboard once, so far.

EH ACCOMPLISHMENT K!! i've never done this before. wow. oh-wow.

ok la, i know i suck. but to you who encourages me to be geekier - thanks! :D

Sunday, August 13, 2006

back from some planetshakin'

Friday, August 11, 2006

priceless call(s) in CORS this sem

unknown girl: hello? erm, is there something wrong with CORS?

me: (mildly irritated coz i get like that whenever anyone starts with that opening line) no. what's wrong.

unknown girl: oh i bid for this module, and i was the only person bidding for it... but i got an email saying i was outbidded.

me (in my mind): well, DUH, someone must have sniped you. but ok la, you quite poor thing.

(out loud): well, what module was it? (PL3248) *checks the bidding history* oh, i see here that there were 2 bidders. and the other bidder bid 200 points.

unknown girl: huh?? can't be!! i monitored until 4:50+!! (the CORS round closes at 5pm)

me: yeah but some person must have gotten in really late and bid more than you.

unknown girl: oh... *dejected*

me: eh! but it's still available now what. there's still one vacancy right?

unknown girl: yeah. i'm bidding for it. *still dejected*

me: are you the only bidder?

unknown girl: yeah.

me (in my mind): THEN WHAT ARE YOU COMPLAINING ABOUT, gahhhhhh.

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(2 hours later)

unknown boy: er hello? i'd like to ask, is there something wrong with CORS?

me: NO!!! what's wrong.

unknown boy: er, i bid for this module ah, and then i put 200 points. but the lowest bid was 1 right? so i should get 199 points back right?

me: can you give me the module code

unknown boy: PL3248

me: *gasps* eh!! you bid for this module very late right??

unknown boy: ya. a few minutes before it ended.

me: *gasps more* HAHAHAHA! i just talked to the girl you outbid! she's not very happy! hahaha!!

unknown boy: *sheepish* oh is it...

me: ya. so anyway, deduct 200 points correct what, since you're the LOWEST SUCCESSFUL BID.

(cuts out the part explaining to him why in a vacancy of 1, whatever his bid is, is considered as the lowest successful bid.)

unknown boy has a revelation: OHHHHHH ok i understand now. er, it was a girl ah?

me: haha, yeah but don't worry coz the module has one more vacancy and she's bidding for it now.

unknown boy: oh ok, heheh, that's good... !!! she doesn't know it's me right? no names right???

me: *drily* why, you scared you meet her in class ah.

unknown boy: hur hur, no la ha-ha. *uncomfortable*

me: haha, ok so is that all?

unknown boy: yep. thanks ah. oh ya, er, don't say ahhhh... SHHHHHH...

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when school starts for PL3248, i can so imagine a nervous guy checking out all the girls and wondering who he pissed off, and a girl going around all pissed off with that same guy.

but they'll never know who it was! i hope. hahahahaha... best way to end off CORS!!

that's all from the CORS girl! back to being Honours girl again. heeh.

Thursday, August 10, 2006

i love being posted at the ssc (part deux)

i love love love it here at the ssc.

i'm planning to watch the dancers on rickey.org, then watch alias season 5 on this laptop coz IT'S GOT A DVD PLAYERRRRRR!

XD

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edit: i'll be very sad when the SYTYCD season ends. Farty, please torrent it for me? *plead*

anyways, i've watched the dances that rickey uploaded. and i've decided...

TRAVIS, FTW!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *lub*lubbbbbb*

here's travis and benji:

so you think you can dance

i've been following the latest season on rickey.org and it's been FANTASTIC!!

the results are coming out today... but i'm torn between the top 2 guys!! benji and travis - MY GOSH THEY ARE SO GOOD. and travis is so cute, that little boy face *PINNNNNCH*

and when it comes to sg, do look out for them, and this girl named donyelle. omg i love her.

(should i go for the dance classes too...? i really reaaaaally wanna.)

alrighty and i'm off for the Honours welcome tea. will try not to eat too much so i'm in top form for kuishinbo. heeh.

Monday, August 07, 2006

i love being posted at the ssc.

no, there's no sarcasm involved.

why?

from today onwards, the CORS Helpdesk walk-in enquiry will be situated in a Discussion Room. which means i can pig out in there and heh heh, surf the web. and go on msn without giving nervous looks around the place to see if any of the bosses are walking around.

i'm well-prepared. i've got my 4 slices of kaya toast, one stick of gyoza and my yam pie with me. old chang kee rocks for putting themselves right outside the ssc.

hurhurhur.

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edit: it's only 1152am and i'm already bored stiff, running out of things to surf, and absolutely bloated after all that food.

and it's almost lunch time! where to eat where to eat where to eat...

Sunday, August 06, 2006

gay or geeky? i'm not sure.

Friday, August 04, 2006

tgif!

it's finally the start of my weekend (which starts officially after kids cell).

so happy i can T_T

*unwind*

mindless stuff

Instructions:
1) Cut and paste this meme onto your blog.
2) Bold whatever is true of you.

Me:
I can decently speak more than three languages (dialect counts as one!).
I can speak my dialect.
I live with my grandparents.
I’ve never cross-dressed before.
I personally know someone who died/was hospitalised of SARS.
I had SARS.
I don’t know how to play mahjong.
I don’t know how to play Blackjack.
I can decently play more than three instruments (and no, the recorder is not.)
I have spent more than $200 on an item before.

My preferences:
I do not hate pink.
I’m anti-yaoi. (??)
I’m anti-yuri. (??)
I’m anti-hentai.
I usually support the bad guys.
I wish I could change my gender.
Japanese cars over continental cars.
Channel U over Channel 8.
Today over Straits Times.
Kino over borders.
Film fests over Hollywood.

My sch life:
I hate RI.
I think pai kias are cool.
I passionately love an academic subject.
I was not from the Express stream.
I took Higher mother tongue.
I was never a class rep/comm member/prefect.
I have had more than 3 CCAs at one time.
I did things just for CCA points.
I got 10 points or less for my L1R5.
I never pon class before.
I never got booked before.
I was the teacher’s pet.
I loved my school library.
I think inter-fac/house events are a waste of time.

I liked/like social studies.
For primary school, I prefer to be in a single-sex school

For secondary school, I prefer to be in a single-sex school.
I had/have a crush on a teacher.


My leisure time:
I have never went clubbing before.
I have never watched a Korean drama before. (tried, but damn chiong hei la.)
I’ve watched 15 before.
I am a fan of one or more local bands.
I love J-rock.
Screw the Oscars.
I am a reality TV whore.
I confess. I like some of Britney Spears’s songs.
My favourite hangout is Orchard.
I have traveled to all continents.
I prefer Sly over Taufik.

My love life:
I had/have a stead. (who on EARTH calls them stead anymore?? hahaha)
if yes: I’ve never been dumped before.
I’m straight.
I want to marry a foreigner.
I was a third-party before.
Even if I like someone, I won’t do the confessing.
I’m seme.
I believe that there’s nothing wrong with dumb guys dating smart girls.
I am against fornication.

Food!:
I have eaten dog-food.
I only like Chinese food.
I hate Mac’s.
I hate KFC.
I hate BK.
I’ve never eaten at Crystal Jade.
I’ve never eaten at Bread Talk.
I hate Bread Talk.
I’ve eaten at Equinox.
I’ve eaten at Raffles Hotel.
I’ve eaten at Chjimes.
I’ve eaten Ghim Moh’s famous char kuay tiao.

Thou Art a Pai Kia!:
I’ve taken drugs before.
I’ve stolen before.
I’ve smoked before.
I have a tattoo.
I’m into BDSM.
I’ve more than one piercing on any ear.
I’ve non-ear piercings.
I think cult groups are cool.
I’ve watched porn before.
I usually don’t put my phone to silent-mode in the cinema.
I’m proficient in Hokkien vulgarities.
I’m not a virgin.

left ear painnnn.

engineering's having a pre-allocated modules mess-up, and the phone lines are useless coz NOBODY AT ENGINEERING is paying any heed to the incessant 'ring-ring'...

so we are getting the brunt of it. all the rude people, all the unreasonable demands, and being unable to contact Engin (even for us), tempers are flaring.

seriously, FOE, is it so hard for you to think of putting up an announcement so that the whole freaking community knows you're at least working on the problem already??

*very irritated*

Thursday, August 03, 2006

we will defy all that holds us back from You!

the first time i heard this song, i disliked it. the bits when the song slowed down really sagged, and it was the first song ever played where we and my comrades just stared at each other, not knowing to clap, or jump? or stop entirely? *scratch head*

so when Skinny Beany came back from Australia after the Hillsongs conference, and after i took his Hillsongs United album, i just HAD to listen for myself if the song was really so... weird.

the first listen:

"hmm... Revolution... track 11... *fiddle*fiddle* Ok, play."

(3 minutes and 44 seconds later):

o_O

the second listen:

O_O

the fifty-seventh listen:

still O_O


i love it! argh. the emulation done really did this no justice. ah well, i'm hoping on the week where it's my cell's turn to be the choir...

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sidetrack abit, ah.

it's my zone's turn to do choir duty!! so exciting! we get to wear bright polo tees, stand on stage, and wave our arms about like mad people!!!

no la, kidding. we need to go and learn the actions on the 24th before we can go join in leading worship. (i don't care, i'm seeing this as a form of leading worship. people can see you ok.)

eh Mambo King, don't go for reservice la... go for service!! (hahahah! pun! pun!! ... ok pretty obvious. never mind then.)

i'm terribly excited.

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... they won't play this song. or i might cringe. it's really too weird when it's being performed here, coz... maybe the change in beat is hard to catch? aiyah dunno la.

BUT!! knowing God's sense of humour, this will probably be in the line up for worship that week. just wait and see.

i'm just praying that it'll be done well. otherwise everyone will be busy shooting quizzical looks and catching on to the altered beat instead of praising. *pray*

no more power la. very tired.

heh. the student service center, where i'm at, just had a black out. heh-heh.

it's so weird, coz it's still as crowded, but it's just noise in the dim evening light. and i'm the only one still tapping on my keyboard coz it's running on batt. and somehow, the router's still working... hmm.

/shrug

poor students. (ok, not really.)

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edit: crap i can't call azlan to leave early coz the IP PHONE is down too. gahhh.

GRIPE-Y

round 1C:

dumb dumb, DUMB STUDENTS!!

you need to declare your major la!! before you can add your modules la!!! i have no idea what u went to the welcome/matriculation talk for! argh!!!

*breathe*

wah lau, all the year ones really one kind one leh!!

OMG I JUST GOT A YEAR 4 THAT HASN'T DECLARED. OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!! *bashes head on table*

you can't be that stupid right??? now all your rounds are over, and NOW, THEN U REALIZE???

you gotta be kidding me!!!!!!!!!!

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sweet tempered Slim CORS girl just shot at the ever ringing phone 'KEEP QUIET LA!!' hilarious. *dry laugh*

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omg the lines are on fire! and all having the same problem of not bring able to add their modules because they haven't declared. SHEESH.

the thing is, these are all problems that could've been easily solved if they'd gone and actually LISTENED during their matriculation, or if they even bothered to read the CORS website!!!

so peeved i don't wanna spell/grammer check.

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

Oscar, Hilary and Teddy

i love dogs.

in particular, clean and fluffy golden retrievers.

my neighbour has 2 cats and a golden retriever. the family takes such good care of them that they all have great fur and u can put your face into their fur without worrying you'll have a pimple break out.

except Hilary* the cat, coz i'm allergic to her and i might break out in hives if i do that.

i saw Oscar* the dog 2 days ago when i came home from the Gateway Cities Youth Convention... and there he was, just standing there patiently waiting for his owners to bring him for a walk.

he's so guai.

when i walked past him, i smiled at the owners (i know them - animals bring people together somehow) and then at Oscar, waved at him and said, 'Hi Oscar! *grin*grin*grin*'

that was his cue.

i was standing about a meter away, but i could practically see him perk up and twitch his ears, and he stood up and bounded toward me, raised himself on his hind legs, and gave me a hug.

if u consider doggie hugs as those where their doggie paws press on your chest and almost brings you down to the carpark gravel.

ahh good hug. :)

i laughed and ran my fingers through his soft, soft, soft fur - OMG I LOVE HIM!! and the best thing about Oscar?

he's not licky at all! nor smelly!

i gave him a huggle before i pulled his paws off my shirt (argh, my star wars shirt has claw marks now). he's so heavy i had to heave him off.

i think he and i had fun. :D

it's amazing how dogs are so pleasant to have. i want 2 cats and a dog too!!

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this morning as i was walking out to the gate, i saw Hilary and Teddy* the cat seated about one meter apart of each other in the carpark. i grinned coz Teddy can't stand Hilary, but Hilary, being a seriously dumb and playful cat, keeps wanting to play with Teddy! either that, or she's just bullying him.

haha. dumb cats.

*real name