timely

just as i was at the brink of despair, i get an organizer with verses for every month. and on the cover there're two bears in a basket - very badly photo-shopped but it says 'Bears All Things', which is a snippet from Corinthians.

awww. :)

(oh hey! it's manufactured by elim-art... does it have anything to do with the elim church that alvin's mom mentioned? interesting.)

many things have gotten to me recently, church news, the growth (or not) of my cell groups, the immense amount of work i have to clear before i leave in a month, the increasing expenditure of the new house, and most of all... the uncertainty of the wedding date.

it's gotten so bad that alvin had to counsel me twice this month, and sound me out before i lose it completely. i get urges to stop going to church and cell group, and not working, just so people will stop demanding something from me all the time. i need time alone, and i need time to myself.

but today as i was giving the altar call at our christmas party, i looked at the children with their eyes closed and their palms open... warmth came back into my heart. then it made it easier for me to see that it's great that i have a job of my choice waiting for me in a month, i have a beautiful house nearing completion, and a fiance that loves me even when i am acting out like a crazed nut.

this is my christmas miracle, and christmas is now christmas because it's happened in my heart. :)

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*gasp* i just saw the backcover: 'you shall love your neighbour as yourself.' mark 12:31

that's the verse i was planning to use for the year! *heebie jeebies*