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being chided was good. over the whole debacle, i've been counselled, and sort of reprimanded, which was also good.

i feel so maligned. sometimes, u just find someone whom u can clique with, and make friends with... until something blows up and bites u in the ass.

i also feel betrayed. i've never entered any of my friendships guardedly, so i trust and speak openly. i see that was stupid now.

don't mind me as i build back my walls to defend and to protect. and just walk away from this mess, because there's absolutely nothing i want to salvage.

really. i just wanna stay away from guys.