do you know what you are getting yourself into?

(i wasn't going to post this till tmr, but someone was talking about this too, so alright then... it might be a sign.)

i was doing QT a few days ago, and studying abraham's life story when i thought:

"why on earth is He called God's friend?? he gave his wife to various rulers of whichever country he stepped into, and cared about preserving his life over caring for his wife. geez!"

then reading on, i realized that... when God speaks, he moves immediately.

heh, guess which chapter i was at?

it's the famous one where he was going to sacrifice his son, isaac.

as i read, i realized... he's so obedient and faithful. all God had to do was call, and he moved without question. i'm sure at some point he would have thought of: what am i going to tell my wife when i come home without isaac? and isaac, in all his childlike innocence, also questioned his dad: where's the sacrifice, daddy?

i'm sure abraham's heart broke at that. but he continued on.

of course, we all know the story; God told him to stop, and blessed abraham greatly because he obeyed.

i don't know why it took me so long, but i suddenly remembered that this was the exact scenario that was painted to me at one leader's retreat 2 years back.

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HEY! GOD ALWAYS SPEAKS TO ME AT LEADER'S RETREAT. haha, it's pavlovian now. i'll either really wanna go so i can hear Him, or if i'm trying to hide something from Him, i'll dread going. sheesh. i'll try not to hide though.

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someone came up to me and said, 'give up your isaac.' up till now, i still have no idea who told me that. i thought it was this particular girl in my tribe... but as it turned out, it wasn't her.

i guess i did the sacrificial walk like abraham, but unlike him, who took time to 'officialize' his offering by building an altar and setting up a fire etc, i made a mess of mine. and then left it there and ran away crying.

i didn't trust Him at all.

i really hope i'm different now, to be more like abraham, to trust and serve God at the same time. it just proves, no matter what kind of a person u are... if u wanna be blessed? just obey.

and TRUST HIM.

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Relient K - Getting Into You

When I made up my mind
And my heart along with that
To live not for myself
But yet for God, somebody said
Do you know what you are getting yourself into

When I finally ironed out
All of my priorities
And asked God to remove the doubt
That makes me so unsure of these
Things I ask myself, I ask myself
Do you know what you are getting yourself into

[Chorus]
I'm getting into you
Because you got to me, in a way words can't describe
I'm getting into you
Because I've got to be
You're essential to survive
I'm going to love you with my life

When he looked at me and said
I kind of view you as a son
And for a second our eyes met
And I met that with a question
Do you know what you are getting yourself into

[Chorus]

I've been a liar and I'll never amount to
The kind of person you deserve to worship you
You say you will not dwell on what I did but rather what I do you say
I love you and that's what you are getting yourself into

[Chorus]

He said, I love you and that's what you are getting yourself into