(A melodic or harmonic configuration that creates a sense of repose or resolution.)

"But I am like a green olive tree in the house of God; I trust in the mercy of God for ever and ever." - Psalms 52:8

Saturday, March 25, 2006

you need to decide and take control.

was happily doing my work and copying my notes when i suddenly got a msn poke:

XXX says:

Ms. Meow *cramped* says:
hey girl wassup?

XXX says:
i feel suicidal

yikes. apparently this girl is totally obsessing about her CAP coz she wants to get into the Johns-Hopkins-NUS tie-up for a postgrad medical degree. and she fell to pieces coz she got a C in a recent test.

at first i was worried. (yes, when u tell me you're suicidal, please don't joke about it; IT IS NOT FUNNY TO ME.).

then i became frustrated coz i really think if she's falling apart and going to pieces, she's obviously not going to survive being a doctor.

then i got really pissed, coz she just whined and whined and didn't do anything about it (even after i told her adelaide's med degree is accepted in singapore - she can just drop everything now, and go over.)

now that she's abit better and less suicidal (i hope), i suddenly feel very sympathetic. and really sad for those who never made up their minds in the beginning, and all came to life science coz it's a hot topic.

really, please. take control of your lives people.

aiyah, i don't know la. she's really not the first to tell me this. i always get people who come up to me and say 'hmm, i really don't know what i'm doing in life sciences.' and then i get a little riled, coz these people are so indecisive, and they had such good grades they could've gone anywhere they wanted, but they didn't. coz 'aiyah, i really don't know what i want to do...'

are u seriously going to stay like that until you're 40? don't waste your life away!!!

but then after my boiling dissipates, i guess it's also very saddening. then i get very sad for them. and then very worried. aiyah, it's just a vicious cycle.

and i'm just letting out some steam that i've kept for almost 3 years.


it's so cute; i turned on the aircon coz of the bout of hot flushes i was having, which attracted my mom into the room. then she usurped my bed.

thing is, i'm playing my Hillsong album while she naps. :)


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