getting out of my underground location.

went out in the morning to celebrate angel's birthday over brunch at this place called the marmalade pantry; nice chi-chi place, with pretty good nibbles, but phwoar... i don't wanna touch eggs (scrambled/omelette/hard-boiled WHATEVER) for the next 3-6 years.

kidding! but we really had an egg-overload. bleh.

well, it was nice sitting there with my girls, all pretty and just chilling. i guess it's a different stage of life already - one year back they had just graduated and exploring job possibilities. now? all well-clad and more worldly; WHEN AM I EVER GONNA JOIN U GUYS??

one thing never changes though - shopping. we went shoe shopping today and i am now wanting a pair of red pumps from zara. they made my legs look as if they went on forever... and wearing them made me about 4-5 inches taller.

killer heels!!! *drool*

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ok is it me, or is this post a little lack-lustre?

i don't know. i don't feel like studying and i've got so much on my mind.

the reality check the girls gave me during brunch was pretty enlightening and straight in the face: 'viv!! you're being STUPID, alright?'

T_T

and it turns out that i am now mel. hahahaha. we had quite a laugh over it. i still remember the time when i was the one doing the chiding. and i was so freaking holier-than-thou. geez. thanks babe, for being so nice about it now and letting xinwei do the smacking.

sigh sigh sigh. i seem to be doing all the things that people don't expect me to be doing and i guess i've disappointed more than a few folks about my actions lately. don't you worry, i do hate myself too. you know what?

i am Christian. and proud to be one.

but sometimes, we just fall. so if u want to judge me, i guess it's up to you.

aiyah, i'm being so emo. *shudder* sometimes i just don't know what to write here anymore, coz people read what i write and assume because i appear happy here, what happens in real life doesn't affect me at all.

but this is a happy blog; that's why it's pink, right?

(wow i'm really just typing randomly... pretty liberating. so what if my sentences seem truncated and you don't get them? weeee~)

i need to get out of hiding, do things i'm not afraid of being exposed. i need to clear out the cobwebs and little white lies i discretely tuck into my heart.

sheesh, this time i've really gone too far down.

'Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.' -Proverbs 31:30

i heart YouTube

the emotions we keep locked away like stolen pearls

hello! your friendly and frequent (?) blogger is back! well, for now at least, coz i've decided to write a decent post instead of showing u guys where i've been getting my entertainment fix. (see posts below)

the reason why i haven't been posting was because the exams are here, among other reasons. with only 3 papers this sem, i don't really know how i managed with 5 the past sems. i must have been either a) very prepared or b) very insane. perhaps the modules were easy?

well, anyways, this is gonna be one of those 'i just wanna sit here and type off my mind' kinda posts. so yay, here i go. (xinwei, read this only when u have time, haha)

well, yeah out of my 3 papers, i've got 2 down and the next one's not for another week. which means if i start tomorrow, it is possible i can get an A for it. *hopeful*

i've been extremely blessed. so blessed, my legs are strained from jumping, leaping, skipping and running around shouting 'I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!!'

see, i had 2 papers: one on saturday and one on monday. both morning papers. and because of a certain 30% report i wasn't very prepared for them. so to cut things short, i studied for both papers only one day before. the amount of notes i had to memorize... hmm, the thickness would be about 3/4 of your forearm to fingertips. yep. such is the life of life science students.

(*pounds head with huge file of notes* 'get in, dammit.')

well, of course i couldn't finish! so i had to start trying to spot questions... and guess what? everytime i flipped open my question book with shaky fingers, the questions - i could do! i know that this is a 'duh, i knew u were going to say that' moment, but hey - i get extremely panicky when i'm not fully prepared for an exam.

especially for infectious diseases. there's a crazy load of bacteria, viruses, fungi, helminths, parasites (and... is that all? feels like i forgot something. BUT IT DOESN'T MATTER NOW! MUAHAHAHAHA) that are 'medically important' and if you don't study them, u DIE. or something.

but i survived, somehow. i was pretty delirious after i stepped out of infectious diseases on monday - 40 hours without sleep is nuts. yes, and can i say again i knew how to do the essays? *crumples with relief*

and! the best thing that God has blessed me with since getting into NUS is...

*drumroll*

... having an honours project drop on your lap, fling its arms wide open and shout 'TAKE ME!! I'M YOURS!!!'

*HUGGLE*

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edit: oh yes, i remember the exact reason why i stopped blogging. coz around april 12th, i got wind of something that made me SO MAD i was afraid of myself. and i really didn't want to let loose on this blog and... ah never mind. thinking about it still makes my blood boil.

Snow White and the Seven Samurai

How many samurai does it take to change a light bulb?

Easy: seven, of course.

One to change the bulb, six to commit ritual suicide to expunge the disgrace of the old one having failed.

- Tom Holt

over and over

before u click on the link below...

please prepare some tissues.

*sniff*

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2exE-td4F3k&search=anberlin

tagged (but not with GST nor His6)

If any of the following statements apply to you, highlight/bold/italize it. then, post.

i have a cell phone.
i have friends that use me.
i am an only child.
i love dangly earrings.
i love cold weather.
im obsessed with the computer internet.
i have shot a gun before.
i cant live without music.
i have no tolerance of ignorant people.
i have ridden on a motorcycle before.
ill be in this town forever.
ive been to 5 other countries.
i get annoyed easily.
i eventually want kids.
i have neat handwriting.
i have more than a few horrible memories.
i am addicted to chocolate.
i am an atheist.
i love airplane rides.
i love taking pictures.
i hate people who are fake.
i can be mean when i want to.
my parents care about my grades.
one of my best friends is a girl.
i have way too many wallets.
im obsessed with lip gloss.
i am easy to talk to.
i would never eat raw fish.
i cry easily.
i hate when people are late.
i procrastinate.
i love winter.
i have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
i love to sleep.
i wish i were smarter.
im afraid of flying.
i hate drama.
i bite my nails.
i have been on an 8 hour drive.
i never fight with my parents.
i love the beach.
i have never had the chicken pox.
i have gone out in public in my pajamas.
i can't control my emotions.
i have a best friend.
i have moved more than once.
i truly love my friends.
i have braces.
i have never broken a bone.
i hate my computer.
i love girls who play the drums/guitar.
i state the obvious.
im a happy person.
i love to dance.
i love to sing.
i love cleaning my room.
i tend to get jealous very easily.
i love cute underwear.
i love night better than day.
i don't like to study for tests.
i have been on the phone for over 5 hours.
i am too forgiving.
i have horrible sense of direction.
i miss elementary school.
i love the color pink.
i love to sew.
my eye color changes.
i should see a therapist.
i become stressed easily.
i hate/detest liars.
i love the smell of rain.
i love my family.
i hate needles.
i am a perfectionist.
i always wanted to learn to play the guitar.
i hate the feeling of failure.
i have friends in other countries.
i know how to cook.
i can be quite selfish.
at times, i still act like a little kid.
i love to read.
i wish i were more motivated for school.
i love getting stuff in the mail.
i have problems with letting go of old feelings.
i hate being alone.
i love summer.
i love the weekends.
i love black eyeliner.
i think i'm a looker.
i type with one hand.
i live in a one storey house.
i have never rode on an underground subway.
i can't swim.
i have bad memories.
i go to church.
i sing in the shower.
i hate cheerleaders.
i usually get what i want.
i have been on stage before.
i love roller coasters.
no one knows the full story of my life.
i am close to my parents.
i dont have a curfew

if you're reading this... TAG!! XD

kiss the rain.

it was beginning to drizzle as i got home; it was one of those intermittent fat droplets, not the small misty type that comes down in torrents.

i walked until i came out from under shelter... paused, closed my eyes, and faced the sky.

one droplet landed in between my lips.

i gave the sky a bittersweet thank-you smile.

'Break me shake me hate me take me make me
Fake me break me shake me hate me take me
Break me.'

i've got peanut oil in my ear. (part II)

apparently my mom came into my bedroom and was talking to me... 'cept that i had no idea she was talking at all.

yes, both my ears are still blocked - left by earwax, right by peanut oil.

so mommy decided to take things into her own hands, culminating in this situation:

mom: one hand plunging cotton bud into my ear, the other yanking my ear open

dad: peering behind my mom's shoulder

me: screaming and yelling coz cotton bud was seriously hurting my ear's inner walls, and the yanking was abit hard to take (my ears have cartilage! unlike some people!)

after a bout of struggling and me giving sulky looks, my mom gave up. then my dad was all excited about taking a light source to see where the problem was, so he dug out a torch adrean brought back, pushed my head to one side, and shone the beam straight in. WHILE YANKING BACK MY EAR AGAIN.

boo... i am lab rat.

i've got peanut oil in my ear.

ok, before u think i'm doing something kinky, I'M NOT.

my ear started to get really blocked on thursday, and got progressively worse by saturday... i'm currently deaf in one ear. :(

anyways, i got pretty freaked at the thought of using sign language for the rest of my life, so i went to check my ear yesterday. apparently i just have tons of earwax (yeah, grossness) and it's blocked my ear canal. so the doc gave me this bottle of 'earwax loosener' in which the main component is peanut oil.

thing is, i'm supposed to apply it directly into my ear-hole, so duh, i need someone to do it for me coz i can't see it.

i got my dad to do it for me today... i am now cocking my head to the left, and i have 2 ears full of oil, and am deaf in BOTH ears.

i really don't know how my dad managed to worsen my condition.

the application yesterday was done with more finesse, no?

i'm now trying to stop the oil from over flowing out of my ear.

the silent scream.

sometimes i just talk before i think. then when it's out into the open, it lands me in a position where i'm like a deer caught in headlights.

well, right now, i still look like the baldy in the portrait.

another reason to look like that: the exams are coming.

i'm in a Savage Garden.

i've got my savage garden cd back!! plus my nelly and justin timberlake ones too, but arghh!!! SAVAGE GARDEN HAS COME BACK TO ME!!

i felt really retarded after i lent it to xinwei, and then realized that i don't have it on my comp nor mp3 player. so smart right?

well, do you have the savage garden cd? it's fantastiche! well, i know i have at least one person whom i can share it with. :D

i'm the kinda person who endorses
in a deep commitment
Getting comfy getting perfect
is what i live for
But a look, then a smell of perfume
It's like i'm down on the floor
And i don't know what i'm in for

Come stand a little bit closer
Breathe in and get a bit higher
You'll never know what hit you
When i get to you

i used to be able to rap this! i'm sucha geek. heh.

happy birthday...

to you! alvin!

XD
















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edit: ok la, it's the boy's birthday, so i'll put up a nice picture. or sort of nice. or at least a decent one? haha. happy birthday again uncle! hope u enjoyed yourself.
















wow i really don't have many pictures of u man. this is the most decent i can find.

OH MY... /bangs head on table top

i've been an absolute idiot.

i'd wanted to change my phone since i saw ronald's Motorola L7 (it's so pweety...) but i thought my plan only ended next year in march, so i'd decided to wait till then to decide, coz i've got no cash now.

then. i received a $65 voucher for a handset upgrade from M1. i thought they were being idiots, coz, duh, i obviously can't use it coz i can't upgrade my handset till next year right? so i chucked it to one side.

somehow, by fluke, i noticed that, hey, my sunperks points seem to have expired already... OH MY GOODNESS DOES THIS MEAN MY CONTRACT HAS ACTUALLY ALREADY EXPIRED??!

well, guess what? YES!! i had my 10 minutes of screamy exhilaration knowing i had my voucher and that the L7 is cheap now... until i noticed in fine print:

'this voucher is valid till 24th March 2006.'

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~

and guess what? it's april fool's day. this sucks!! T_T