cow economics!

angel! i love this!! so funny... teehee.


SOCIALISM:
You have 2 cows and you give one to your neighbour.

COMMUNISM:
You have 2 cows; the Government takes both and gives you some milk.

FASCISM:
You have 2 cows; the Government takes both and sells you some milk.

NAZISM:
You have 2 cows. The Government takes both and shoots you.

BUREAUCRATISM:
You have 2 cows; the Government takes both, shoots one, milks the other and throws the milk away...

TRADITIONAL CAPITALISM:
You have two cows. You sell one and buy a bull. Your herd multiplies, and the economy grows. You sell them and retire on the income.

AN AMERICAN CORPORATION:
You have two cows. You sell one, and force the other to produce the milk of four cows. Later, you hire a consultant to analyse why the cow dropped dead.

A FRENCH CORPORATION:
You have two cows. You go on strike because you want three cows.

A JAPANESE CORPORATION:
You have two cows. You redesign them so they are one-tenth the size of an ordinary cow and produce twenty times the milk. You then create A clever cow cartoon image called Cowkimon and market them World-Wide.

A GERMAN CORPORATION:
You have two cows. You reengineer them so they live for 100 years, Eat once a month, and milk themselves.

AN ITALIAN CORPORATION:
You have two cows, but you don't know where they are. You break for lunch.

A RUSSIAN CORPORATION:
You have two cows. You count them and learn you have five cows. You count them again and learn you have 42 cows. You count them again and learn you have 2 cows. You stop counting cows and open another bottle of vodka.

A SWISS CORPORATION:
You have 5000 cows, none of which belong to you. You charge others for storing them.

A CHINESE CORPORATION:
You have two cows. You have 300 people milking them. You claim full employment, high bovine productivity, and arrest the newsman who reported the numbers.

AN INDIAN CORPORATION:
You have two cows. You worship them.

A BRITISH CORPORATION:
You have two cows. Both are mad.

boys speak in rhythm...

my aunt from canada just left. she brought along her precocious 12 year old son, neil, for this trip, and MY GOODNESS he's just one huge barrel of laughs.

incident #1:

my mom is chinese educated, so her english isn't too strong. when she was trying to explain something to neil, he suddenly protested:

'i don't understand italian! i don't understand italian!!'

???!!

incident #2:

we all sat down for dinner, and my dad started to tuck in. neil gave a horrified look and went, 'have you started eating? why have you started eating?? WE HAVEN'T SAID GRACE YET!!'

i started to snigger as my dad nearly choked on his rice. there was a pregnant pause. and a little bitty uncomfortable silence coz i was laughing so hard i couldn't explain exactly half of us aren't Christians.

then my dad gave an uncomfortable laugh. it went like this: ha ha ha.

neil widened his eyes and wailed, 'do you think this is funny?? how come you don't thank God before your meals??'

finally my aunty found her tongue. 'alright, why don't you say grace for us then.'

neil: 'but i don't want to! i said it at breakfast... *whine* mom, why don't you do it?'

so grace was said. and i was pretty much the only person who enjoyed it. so much so, i grinned all the way through the prayer.

hahahahahahahaha!! it's... damn... funny...

adrean was laughing his head off too.

i seem to attract kids today. dunno why. was on the train this morning doing my QT when this little toddler boy (~2-3 years old) sat on my right on his maid's lap and just stared at me quietly. then i pretended not to notice... until i turned and stared at him straight while giving him a playful smile. oh, how i loved it when he started to be shy and hid his face mid-laugh. then i got back to QT but he kept trying to reach for my Bible. his maid stopped him though. heeh.

then on my way home, this toddler girl (~2-3 years old too!) sat on my left. first she stared at me for the longest time. i glanced at her and smiled. then she smiled. then she spotted my earphone wires hanging out of my bag, so she leaned on her mom and twiddled with them. then she started yanking, so i pretended to fight her. er, kids being kids, she started to laugh and PULLED. ok i'm pretty broke and can't bear to get new earphones so i had to stop her. no more wires, so she started to stare at me again. then i grinned. and she grinned too. and gave a little gurgle! then she reached out to grab my heart-shaped earrings.

argh so cute.

and the kids at kids cell were super cooperative today. i'm so glad my new method is working. must engage them man! oh, and neil had wanted to go over to melville with me but his mom didn't allow it. so when i reached home at 1015pm he wailed 'see? i told you mom! i told you she'd be back by the time you wanna leave! *pouty*'

it's a Loon trait.

ooh, talking about that - the Loons are one good looking bunch. no, seriously. neil is one cutie pie. and so are most of my cousins, i realized. and on my mom's side too, plenty of good-lookers.

i have great genes.

ooh check out what neil drew:

and girls just lie.

*growl*

i do not like shopping for presents for guys. especially when i'm alone. first of all, when u ask them if they need something, they say 'nothing'. then when you insist on getting them something, they say 'ok maybe this... or that.. ah, but anything la!'

then when u find something that fits the description, but comes in 2 colours: 'er, anything la...'

aiyoh, help me out here la... i'm only good at shopping for myself!

but in the end i got fed up and just grabbed the stuff plus... uh, other stuff...

ooh my aunty's here! will continue later.

heh. (i'm not telling you.)

/runs away

i'm being a Monica.

alright. i need to get my things organized.

*rabid look*

1. 2202 test (30%) - 8th April
2. App. microb test (20%) - 10th April
3. 2202 lab report (30%) - 12th April
4. Search through Honours proj listings
5. Biotech lab report (15%) - ??
6. App. micro lab report (3.333...%) - ??
7. Study for my friggin exams - 24th 22nd April till 3rd May

well. have finally tidied everything up; everything looks clear to me now!

'no turning back, no turning back...'

/hides in one corner

i've been sacked. i think.

boo-hoo.

i've lost my tuition job. i can think of various reasons why; some my fault, and some of it is just plain unfairness... but aiyah, what to do?

well, if any of you know anyone who needs chemistry/biology tuition please lemme know. either secondary or JC.

no more primary school kids for me, man. bad pay, bad parents who spoil their kids silly.

BAH!

call me when you want to.

i pray for peace over your family
and for you, strength.

appendicitis? no?

well, it's been a hectic one full day of 24 hours. had no rest till i completed my applied microbiology report (i still have no idea what i was writing, or attempting to write) so i stayed up the whole night until i heard the birds chirp and hey, it's time for school!

that really killed my body system, making me have a superb lack of judgement, lack of control, and... i started weirding out about whether i was having appendicitis.

too much Infectious is not good for me. paranoia!

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i love what i'm doing in school. i admit that i am a nerd, and i can be really geeky. i absolutely adore the research field. everything's so exciting! (but of course i'm not as rabid as the 20+ year old assoc prof featured in the protein purification video; she's hilarious)

i don't know why i just said that, but yeah, i really wanna do well. and exam period is looming closer and closer, so i guess everything else on my mind will have to wait.

happy birthday mummy! :D

it's mummy's birthday!

was rushing off after service to get a cake for mummy dearest, so i went to Prima Deli at the basement of East Point... they had Chocolate Mint Tea! it's good stuff man.

it was raining crazily outside so i had to take a bus back, but got pretty drenched coz the people getting on the bus in front of me were like, SLOWLY getting on, and everyone else was stuck behind them getting wet, i.e. ME.

then i got to my bus-stop, and oddly enough, i was feeling cheery though it was pouring and gloomy. i placed my cake on the bus-stop bench, and took out the new brolly my mom gave me, shook it open... then started laughing.

it is PINK.

and it had Hello Kitty printed ALL OVER IT.

so gu niang so gu niang so gu niaaaaaaang!! but i couldn't stop smiling to myself even as i was traipsing through the puddles on my way home.

rain is nice. u see girls squealing and shrieking at the slight bit of water (hahaha); people dashing across the road, then meeting them later and sheltering them to Changi Rise (i know a new neighbour!); kids running to the edge of the shelter and sticking their hands out for the raindrops.

and mummy enjoyed her cake. she was darn pleased.

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what did i do to deserve people who love me, and are willing to protect me?

but i thank you.

low cars

nel had a small gathering at her place; it was just me, aileen, ingrid and alvin.

so after about 1/2 of 2 vcds each, left-over steamboat and a few home made martinis (*smacks lips*), we decided to go home.

so me, aileen and grid were standing on the pavement waiting for alvin to fetch his car from the carpark when we spotted a zhng-ed car. it was the usual - bright paintworks (yellow), had a spoiler the size of a... it was huge la, blue neon lights in the undercarriage, and low, LOW suspension.

me and ingrid: 'wah! eh! zhng-ed car!'

then we started laughing at how he slowed to a crawl (nel's place has killer humps the size of those at marine parade hahaha) so i nodded towards the car and exclaimed:

'hahaha! zhng for what?? come to humps still must slow down until like that, hahahaha...'

as the car drove past, i noticed something.

the driver's window was rolled down. and the driver was glaring at me.

dammit, he obviously heard everything.

'shit. alvin, drive down faster!!'

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oh and this was the first time i've actually seen alvin drive!! gasp!

he can't park. it's mad. he parks without checking if the front part of his car will hit something when he goes astern. i think my heart stopped and my jaw dropped. but he was so nonchalant about it!

'it's instinct parking! really! won't hit one!'

-_-"'

oh! oh! daviiiiiiiid. u have a friend!!! guess who has no idea how to get around singapore too?

'eh, how to get to your house...'

'er, how to get to nel's house...'

'eh! how to go home?? ah, got aileen... good good.'

you need to decide and take control.

was happily doing my work and copying my notes when i suddenly got a msn poke:

XXX says:
hey.

Ms. Meow *cramped* says:
hey girl wassup?

XXX says:
i feel suicidal

yikes. apparently this girl is totally obsessing about her CAP coz she wants to get into the Johns-Hopkins-NUS tie-up for a postgrad medical degree. and she fell to pieces coz she got a C in a recent test.

at first i was worried. (yes, when u tell me you're suicidal, please don't joke about it; IT IS NOT FUNNY TO ME.).

then i became frustrated coz i really think if she's falling apart and going to pieces, she's obviously not going to survive being a doctor.

then i got really pissed, coz she just whined and whined and didn't do anything about it (even after i told her adelaide's med degree is accepted in singapore - she can just drop everything now, and go over.)

now that she's abit better and less suicidal (i hope), i suddenly feel very sympathetic. and really sad for those who never made up their minds in the beginning, and all came to life science coz it's a hot topic.

really, please. take control of your lives people.

aiyah, i don't know la. she's really not the first to tell me this. i always get people who come up to me and say 'hmm, i really don't know what i'm doing in life sciences.' and then i get a little riled, coz these people are so indecisive, and they had such good grades they could've gone anywhere they wanted, but they didn't. coz 'aiyah, i really don't know what i want to do...'

are u seriously going to stay like that until you're 40? don't waste your life away!!!

but then after my boiling dissipates, i guess it's also very saddening. then i get very sad for them. and then very worried. aiyah, it's just a vicious cycle.

and i'm just letting out some steam that i've kept for almost 3 years.

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it's so cute; i turned on the aircon coz of the bout of hot flushes i was having, which attracted my mom into the room. then she usurped my bed.

thing is, i'm playing my Hillsong album while she naps. :)

i'm glistening.

i hate the weather.

woke up all drenched in perspiration - the fan was ON, mind you. and it doesn't help that my room-facing-pretty-view unfortunately faces the sunrise as well. that means bloody hot mornings.

bah! i wanna go back to sunset way - where my room faced the sunset instead.

i prefer sunsets... somehow light giving way to quiet darkness and twinkling stars sit better with me.

*drown*

i know the things i should be doing.

but when it comes to the crunch, i freak out. especially when i feel like nothing's ever going to be the same, just before it's gone - i cry, i grab blindly.

but by grabbing hold, i leave nail marks that burn into scars.

don't come too close, i tend to hurt you.

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wow how emo am i man! woot. heh. don't worry about that post; just delving into a deeper part of me only few know.

lalalalalala off to lab report.

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edit: this is from the book i'm preparing for children's cell tomorrow. i love how everything's really so simple...

"You know, sometimes I think, 'Why do I waste my time being a Christian?' I could just have fun."

"I know, Mildred (the little girl in the story). That's Satan telling lies in your mind. His kind of fun isn't fun for long.

Most people wish they hadn't obeyed Satan.

Do you know you're in a war?"

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introspection.

i'm looking at myself now.

and it's not what i wanna see.

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watching 'Train Man', the adaptation of a true story about the japanese netizen who woo-ed a girl (nicknamed 'ms hermes') using a chat forum to get dating tips. it's a very sweet show...

the heist!

the weather's great...

all cloudy, gloomy, and rainy.

i love it! mmm. all i wanna do is hide under my blankets and curl up with my bolster. *meow*

(all this deh-ness would be horribly familiar to the people who slept with me in KL. heehee.)

this cuddly weather, however, is extremely detrimental to my work. coz i become all couch potato-ish and watch mtv the whole day. i'm feeling SO LAZY!

wow, i'm even lazy to blog. hmm. ok bubbai. :)

I had this planned all along,
and I brought you here for this
So tie your mask on and pretend that nothing's wrong

-Anberlin, We Dreamt In Heist

tiredjxncvljadqjhrgBLEH.

just came back from 3 straight days of worshipping, roaring, listening to pastor after pastor, and soaking in the Holy Spirit. i don't know what i was running on, but now that i'm home - i just wanna keel over and faint.

was pretty tired on friday alone coz all the activities came back to back; school, kids cell, and G12 day 2. and i stupidly didn't get enough rest that day coz after the conference, my cell went for supper at Popeye's! oh, plus i was ironing out some personal stuff... till friggin' 430 am.

woke up at three intervals on saturday, 945, 1130, and oh shit it's 1230 arghhh. G12 day three was so full of impact. total empowerment! (not to mention the ironing stuff out till 430am really helped me get into the whole conference, finally. thanks 'flame'.)

it felt great to be there at G12, witnessing all of my church family reaching out to God together, having breaks together, sitting together etc. i loved it. there was so much love going around that i do believe i went really hyper. ahh, so that's the fuel i was running on: family love.

*blessed*

after the amazing conference, after aileen and i had a very short heart to heart, we went back to the daniel/samuel hall to bunk in for the night. but of course, we had supper before sleeping!

and on the 18th of march 2006, just barely before midnight, something of great joy happened at the coffee shop at marine parade. but this is something i'll leave my brother-in-Christ (you're official now!) to share with you. if he would ever.

yeah, then after going back for the Game of Life, and loads of ugly, and some discriminating photos... we finally decided to sleep.

then i had a nightmare. -_-

then! processing with pastor william and then service... which ended super late; and then games at signature park! i love going there.

hey sorry if this post is super boring to read and basically recounts my entire few days, but i'm brain-mush, so i will try to entertain another day.

all in all, G12 is a must-go next year.

it's friiiiiiday!

wow, it's a month to the exams. and i haven't even done much studying!

oh no. (then what have i been busy with? WORK. homework and study is very different.)

anyways, went to repair my laptop hinges (yeah, they broke, so technically i had a tablet. sort of.) at hewlett packard. i didn't know how to get there, so i asked my dad.

'oh, the technopark at alexander? it's one stop after sajc. then u walk to the opposite.'

so after school, i happily took 97 and looked out for SA. ahh, my brother's old school... so i kept peering to the left, checking out the old building. then just as the bus was leaving the bus stop, i looked to my right.

CRAP, THERE'S THE HP BUILDING ARGGGHHHH

i had to walk all the way backwards, in the blazing sun.

at least when i got the the repair centre, they told me that repairs will only take 45 minutes (:D), and that the repairs were FREE coz my warranty was for 3 years. (:D:D:D)

the past two days were... fantastiche. *self-indulgent smile*

well, i'm off to kids cell (it's games day! hurrah!) and then to my first ever G12 conference!

schistosome-ing

*yawn*

hi peeps, been busy with loads of STUFF; tuition, lab reports, searching for honours project, church conferences, etc (heh heh).

and i don't really know what to put here, coz i'm too boring la, you don't wanna know about my everyday life.

update: my biotech glowy fish had a 97.5% survival rate! yay!

my goodness, i AM boring. boo. okok going to bed. school's so looooooong.

just in time.

well, other than the mortifying incident below, today was a day for healing.

i didn't want to go for SOL this morning because i was tired and grumpy, and i knew i'd be there alone. but i was down, and needed some spiritual guidance, so i thought i should go la. (and do the things i should be doing.)

when i got there... TA-DA! they talked about the exact thing i was so frustrated about, the night before. i really 'tio' stun...

and i'd only expected God to speak through the sermon (though the pastor incident brought to mind how lame my answers were, and i actually should go think of what my dream/vision for God really is.)

thank goodness i was obedient. :D

you're in love with love, i believe.

you would think a new believer/non-believer would stutter when spoken to by a senior pastor, but not someone who's been attending church for 3 years right?

wrong. especially when he's speaking to you and the whole church is listening in.

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pastor khong has developed this habit to walk away from the pulpit, down the stage, and into the masses, for about 2 weeks now. and so far he's only been walking down the left aisle.

my cell, being not used to the 'walkabouts', sat at the side of the right aisle. and guess who sat right NEXT to the aisle?

and guess where pastor decided to walk along today?

ps khong bounced off the stage, and took 2 steps towards my cell's direction. 'lemme ask someone from this side now!'

candice (next to me) gasps and stares hard at the Bible on her lap. and what did i do? smile at him lor.

(ok really, he's my pastor, so i don't want to avoid him either coz i just feel to look away without at least a smile is horribly disrespectful. but after i did it, i was like CRAP HE'S BEAMING AND ME AND oh, dieee...)

ps: HI WHAT'S YOUR NAME??

me: (very tiny voice) er, vivien. (teeny smile while pressing back in my chair)

ps: so, tell me, vivien. what's your dream??

me: honestly?

ps: yes. let's just be honest here!

me: um, (brain misfires) i want to be a research assistant.

ps: OH. um, how about your dream for God?

me: oh. (something died inside me, while my brain just went all whitenoise.) uh..... *stammer*

ok, i did ask God to speak to me before service... but THIS??!

i think i had a heart seizure.

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after pastor smiled and walked away:

pastor william purposely walked to me and grinned. -_-"'

plus tons of: 'eh vivien! HAHAHAHA' and 'eh vivien! saw u on the big screen!' and 'eh vivien, so... what's your dream??'

GRRR.

well, then we took pictures of ingrid in green!
















and candice and ingrid in green!

i looked so argly on camera...

it's late.

well, going to bed now. but before leaving, here's somemore stanzas!

when stars are falling dark
will light the way
will hit the ground and fall
into the shade
i'll light the night with fire
and run away.

I only stand to break your heart
You can tell it by the way I walk away,
Runaway girl
I only stand to break your heart
You can tell it by the way I run away,
Runaway girl

was this over before
before it ever began?


emo songs soothe me and hurt me.

sometimes i just need to cry and feel the pain - just so i don't make the same mistake twice. will be back to perky self tomorrow, no worries.

so take heart (coz you know that you have mine)

i love anberlin!

woah oh! yeah hey~!

*rocks out*

the 5 love languages...

and they are... *drumroll*

1. Words of Affirmation
2. Receiving Gifts
3. Quality Time
4. Acts of Service
5. Physical Touch

i think i'm a bit of everything, but it's mainly 1 & 5, i think.

5 makes me hard to be alone with, while when 1 is spoken, i really grow. yeah, i'm a sucker for affirmation and edification.

in case you're not sure what love languages are, pardon my loose definition, but they're basically 5 acts that other people can do to to express appreciation/love.

the one(s) that u respond to the most are YOUR love language(s).

*sigh* i likes huggling.

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edit: i found a 'What's Your Love Language Test'!

here goes..........



Making Love

You scored 63% Words of Affirmation, 53% Physical Touch, 26% Giving Gifts, and 18% Acts of Service!

*Your primary love languages are WORDS of AFFIRMATION and PHYSICAL TOUCH. This means you prefer your partner to show his/her feelings for you through the spoken word such as saying "I love you" or leaving a message on your car at work that says I miss you! Chances are you also communicate this way as well. This means you are an emotional and caring lover. You also crave the attention of the people you date, needed a lot of reassurance in the relationship. You don't like to have sex, you prefer to make love. You are sensitive and can get your feelings hurt easily by the person you are with.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:


You scored higher than 84% on Affirmation


You scored higher than 64% on Physical


You scored higher than 25% on Gifts


You scored higher than 20% on Service


Link: The UPDATED Love Language Test written by hxcgurl77 on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

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ok i definitely did the test AFTER the first part of this post. apparently, i know myself pretty well. *grin*

so furrrry.

i saw the cat today! and its fur looked so tempting, it was just asking for a *ruffle*... and so i did.

finally.

but then, i do think i over-did it? after a while, the cat became super manja and started weaving in between my legs... but i loved it! could feel all the fur on its limbs. i was wearing a skirt some more.

i do think it wanted to 'mew'.

:D

hmm i'd like to blog, but then it'd just be a blow-by-blow account of what i did in school - and xinwei gets bored; sorry la, i don't go into deep stuff here coz if i did i'd not only scare u away, but possibly everyone else as well.

alright. so today was a good day.

but dang, i'm so... sleepy now.

edit: (7pm) am now wishing i could've mustered some self-control, and gone back in time to do things differently. *sigh*

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i've got a long way to run.

i finally went jogging on my own.

prepared my play list, got my attire right, put on my shoes...

took 20 steps out of my condo gate and realized that my shorts are falling off. so i had to run back to change. :(

it's just me and my mp3.

'STOP!'

'turn.'

'...take a look around~'

that's been running on repeat in my mind as i walked home from the mrt station... and apparently something of more than just slight amusement to me.

i'm still laughing.

on the way home, i was so very tempted to get off the train at bugis to check out the shoes at exodus.

but i didn't! *pats self on back* and then i met this guy on the train that looked a whole lot like edward norton. it might've been him (coz i stared at him from outram to simei; it's uncanny).

[xinwei! u should go check out if he's touring or something. then you might wanna hang around simei and stalk him or something - he got off at simei.]
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sometimes i think i just want something extra badly when i know i shouldn't. today was even MORE emo than yesterday (i thought it was impossible).

aiyaarggggh.

i really hate this. runaway runaway!

I've been up late writing books
All about heroes and crooks
One of them saves you from this
The other one steals you and then, sure, things, fall...
And all sure things fall.

-Sure Thing Falling, Yellowcard

too much moet.

met the girls for my our tri-weekly therapy and it was great!

talked a lot, and finally let out to someone neutral about all that's been going on in my mind. it was soooo therapeutic, and the champagne helped! we had moetttt... good stuff (and it just tastes so much better when u drink from champagne glasses instead of uh, hotel mugs.)

this is a 'breath of fresh air' after emo-ing in school for almost an entire day. and to poor bob somemore. ah well. heh heh.

i felt strangely zombiefied today. i was just so absorbed in my thoughts, then realized 'hey! why am i even thinking about this' and shake myself out of it... then fall back into the pattern again in less than 5 minutes. i really hope this doesn't go on for long.

OKAY. i need to sleep. mmm. beddd.

*BEAM*

can i say again how blessed i've been?

let me tell you where i'm giving tuition (it's been pushed back to 730pm) - at the Changi Rise clubhouse! i stay in Changi Rise, in case u didn't already know that. the primary 4 kid i'm tutoring stays in block 6 (i stay like, right next block). and i didn't even sign up with this tuition agency; aileen was the one who passed the number to me.

i'm so blessed i'm so blessed i'm so blessed.

and also, i had a great day spending time with my daddy. he cooked for me (another instant noodle event, haha), then we caught half a korean movie on channel 54, and then decided what to do with his excess m1 points together. i do think i'm getting a new phone.

i am happy.

walk on the ocean.

my new tuition job starts in *tick tock tick tock*... 6 hours?

which leaves me plenty of time to do my work, and BLOG.

was weaving an entire blog entry in my mind before i sat down and logged into my dashboard, but now that i'm here, my mind's a complete blank.

it's so irritating! but on the other hand, in my own sub-consciousness, i'm probably telling myself 'do not write that; you DO NOT want to write that'

hmm. i wonder.

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things have been stabilizing around me. i feel good, and a tad lighter. thinking about it, out of sight IS out of mind, this time. from now till my birthday, i'm going to work out and get my straight As. a little worried about what i'm going to do for my honours project (rumours of people contacting the respective profs are giving me the jiggies) but, ah well, finish my work first, then say.

one step at a time.

i want to work out coz 1) i am a slob. 2) i want to feel unwobbly on my birthday, and 3) it trains my willpower to continue on. after running, it always gives me this great satisfaction (though sometimes it's merely one round around the neighbourhood) BECAUSE I HATE RUNNING. but it shows me, hey i can do it, and the incentive to push myself again the next time when my butt doesn't hurt so bloody much.

... and now, back to designing primers.

i need to lose something.

well, if i can't run away from my problems, i can at least RUN.

so instead of losing my head, i lost some fat today! (i love knowing that my adipose tissues are a little saggier, and my muscles a little tighter).

went jogging at signature park today - a grand total of 4 rounds! and then followed by some frisbee (the image of nel barking while catching the frisbee keeps running through my mind HAHAHA) then some twister... which was a little wrong, coz we played with the guys (junliang's butt was in ingrid's face; she screamed, then fell); and also some captains' ball!

*pant*

i need to be healthier, and i've got to work to add a little more stamina each week.

was watching some taiwanese variety show just now, and caught a dance segment. always after a run, i feel healthier and perkier (and not so much of a slob)... then i will suddenly feel this ITCH to move my hips a little, swing my arms about a little, and stretch my legs out a little.

listening to britney makes things ITCHIER. if u get what i mean. i wanna dance i wanna dance i wanna dance.

ok not thinking straight alr; my mind's full of dance moves.
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edit: and here's the original cat fur.

tomorrow won't be better.

*lies back and stares at the ceiling*

Oh no, I see
A spiderweb, it's tangled up with me
And I lost my head
And thought of all the stupid things I said

Oh no what's this?
A spider web, and I'm caught in the middle
So I turned to run
The thought of all the stupid things I've done

I never meant to cause you trouble
And I never meant to do you wrong
And I, well if I ever caused you trouble
Oh no, I never meant to do you harm.

Oh no I see
A spider web and it's me in the middle
So I twist and turn
Here I am in my little bubble

Singing, I never meant to cause you trouble
I never meant to do you wrong
Ah, well if I ever caused you trouble
Oh no, I never meant to do you harm.

They spun a web for me,
They spun a web for me,
They spun a web for me.

-Trouble, Coldplay

*boom*

Sometimes, I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear
And I can't help but ask myself how much
I'll let the fear take the wheel and steer.
It's driven me before, and it seems to have a vague, haunting mass appeal.
But lately I'm beginning to find that I should be the one behind the wheel.

-Drive, Incubus

sometimes when God speaks to you in the morning, you get all fired up. by afternoon, you waver, by evening you throw it out the window. but sometimes... just sometimes, in the middle of the night, He takes control of the entire mess and reveals to you just what kinda crap you've been wading in.

and then He gives u the utterly tattered, but at the same time, perfect, situation to be able to walk out of.

i am walking out of this. not totally, but i really need to think. i'm not ready to handle things... at least give me till my 23rd.

gone!

my blonde streak is gonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnne!

yay!

lablablab

wow! i just survived 3 days worth of lab!

WOW!

monday:
straight after the test (where i didn't sleep AT ALL, remember?) i had applied microbiology lab for 4 hours... was pretty zoned, and the only times i perked up was when andrew and i were really talking rubbish, which eventually meiyan, her partner, and MY T.A. william joined in. we were talking about... the clubs in town--->types of drinks--->the immuno lab is opening--->how common degrees are nowadays--->nobody will want to employ us--->*depressed*--->where william was going for the science fac dinner (or stg like that)--->(the prof joined in)--->tried to convince him to wear bell bottoms coz the theme was the 70s...

guess u can tell we were really damn 'zuo bo'.

tuesday:
still severely lacking in rest, but went for the biotech prac for 4 hours! and i shall explain what we did and make it as idiot-proof (or arts-proof hahaha) as possible.

we have fish. zebrafish. see colourful zebrafish before? those neon ones. ok. we make those.

take DNA. inject into fish muscle.

voila! neon reds, greens, blues, yellows, and purples. *BLINK*

see picture of me poking fish below. (fish fainted by anaesthesia, therefore immobile! but still alive! wow, the wonders of science!)




















i bet angel and xinwei are going to kill me. neh neh ni boo boo. :D

wednesday:
2202 lab. the toughest of the lot this sem and the LONGEST.

6 friggin hours.

but today was like, hmm add this add that, REACTION! then proceed to let it continue reacting for 2.5 hours. yay. then come back, watch video, watch demo of how to operate certain machines... then take reaction out, add abit more stuff, then...

GO HOME. wow. first time end at 5pm leh (normally 6pm)!

oh william was my T.A. for this module too, so we continued the talk on alcohol.............

dunno why also, when i drink so little. haha. oh, and i actually had pictures of me and bob playing retarded finger games (like 'ji-go-pa!' and the one that u play by hitting the opponent's fingers and basically u need to hit so hard the alignment of both fingers go awry or stg like that). those were pretty funny.

2.5 hours is too long!